I don't really no where to start with all of this, a few events in the last few years have led me to try to make sense of what is happening to me, if anything.
As a child I was fairly confident but coming to bed time scared me, I wouldnt make a fuss but once I was in bed some nights I would be petrified. I never knew why, I always imagined my dolls were looking at me etc, some nights it was so bad that I would pretend I'd had a nightmare or that I felt sick so that I could get in bed with my Mum. Then I felt safe. This terror wasn't every night, it seemed to come and go, and it wasn't based in one location.
As an adult (I'm now 26) up until last year it took a lot to scare me - I lived on my own, went to bed without lights on etc, watched scary films. Weird things happened, just loud noises and clocks falling off walls at 3 in the morning, but I always put it down to one of those things.
Then all of sudden the weird stuff increased - I moved into an apartment and one morning I woke up and the painting on my wall had disappeared, another time an empty glass beside me on the floor shattered when no one was there except me. And I was always hearing noises.
Then I went to a medium by mistake as I originally thought I was seeing a fortune teller with some friends. Believe me there was no way I would have chosen to see a medium after the weird things that had happened, so it seems a bit like fate that I met her without realising what she was.The woman told me I had the 'gift'. This was even before I said anything other then my name. The woman told me that weird things were happening to me (which I didn't confirm or disagree with) because spirits were trying to message me or make contact with me, and I wasn't listening to them.
Well this freaked me out quite a bit; because without being too dramatic it was like a light switch turning on - everything suddenly made a lot more sense.
It is now 18 months later and if I'm honest I haven't moved forwards with this; I bought a few books but I felt a bit silly, didn't know what I was doing, and so I've just carried on with my life.
Now though I think I'm receiving messages in my dreams, I can never quite remember them only bits and pieces, but in my dreams the realization is there, I know what I'm supposed to be doing with my life and I think I get messages about people in my life - but when I wake up I can never quite grasp it.
I don't really know why I've said all this. I do feel a bit alone with this all and I don't know what my next step should be, because if I'm honest I'm not sure that I can handle it, or what it is I'm supposed to be learning.
I don't know whether to keep ignoring this, or move forwards?
Any help or direction would be very much appreciated.
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